I wish that it was that easy, I wish I could be that brave

I wish I didn't feel so needy, I wish I didn't want to taste this blade

An overwhelming feeling of a loss of control

A dark an empty inside, where lonlyness has a hold.

I wish that it was that easy, I wish I did have control

Instead of seeing the light in the tunnel, I hover in this musty hole.

Falling into an abyss of anger, locked in a crypt of hate

Allowing your past to linger, realizing your not in control of your fate.

Your temporary fixes only last you so long,

And after the booze wears off, your still repeating that same damn song.

You know the one you listen to that makes you cry that much harder,

You use it to let your agony out, hoping that it doesn't grow any stronger.

and after your eyes are heavy and you have no more tears,

its time to be pissed at the world, and finish slamming down those beers.

It seems to make easier to slice just that much deeper into your veins

Knowing tomorrow you'll have to cover the scars that are causing so much pain.

To put on that smile for the rest of the world, damn I'd rather die

Than to keep putting on this show for everyone, living a lie.